In company annual dinner and people having a lots of fun here — except me. I’m very new here and managed to meet new people today and, they indeed very friendly.
Out of sudden, I really wanted to cry out aloud without thinking who am I, where am I!
I’m just so stress.
I’m already deep down with financial constraint and having with numerous difficult at work, but yet, I have to stand strong and hide the fright feeling. And yet, today my dad said he tendered resignation. My mom is not working and my bro is starting his own family end of the year. Who am I able to call help from?
Second, my ministry in church has been deteriorating year by year. But I’m still held responsibilities of cell group, guitar and PA. It has been months since we last have cell group. My PA member leaving one by one, and everyone is relying on me now. My guitar…sigh.. It has been a year since my last touch on it!!
Last but not least, I still love the girl I met so much. Zean, I really miss you so much. But, you’ll no longer available to me anymore and I just know it will never able to be together anymore. I’m so stress out..who can I talk to?
God… I really wanna wept. I really wanna cry. A simple smile, and a simple laugh, with a simple easy-going guy has reach it’s max capacity. God, you’re all I need and all I want. But, where are you? I’m so tired…..
